What career?

What happened to it all
Where did it go so very wrong
It's like I forgot the tune and words
To my very own song

The train was on track
Absolutely full steam ahead
Now I'm staring at groundhog day
With loathing, full of dread

How do I escape
Stop it pulling me down
Killing, quashing all those dreams
That lifted each and every frown
How do I escape
And save my soul
Stop every aspiration and desire
Dying in a nameless, dark black hole

It might win, you know
Whatever is derailing my plan
Take prospects, energy and more
And stuff it in the can

But only if I give up
Finally admit despair at defeat
Settle for this loathsome lot
Not with a roar, but with a quiet bleat

How do I escape
Stop it pulling me down
Killing, quashing all those dreams
That lifted each and every frown
How do I escape
And save my soul
Stop every aspiration and desire
Dying in a nameless, dark black hole

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!
You're not stealing every dream
But every little knock back
Kills some hope, some self esteem