Forgotten self

There's something I've been pondering
For the longest while
About enjoyment, entertainment
Things that make me smile

It used to come so easily
Second nature, without thought
But now it's really hard to find
This peacefulness that's sought

See, I've forgotten one small thing
And that's how to relax
How to chill, have my fill
Of sitting still in my tracks

While the kids watch a movie
I'm kind of out of sorts
Internet has lost it's pull
Don't feel like watching sports

Music won't talk to me no more
And reading's lost all appeal
Am struggling to stop and find
The real and proper deal

So what happens next I ask?
I really have no clue
Am at a loss, out of ideas
What can drag me through

Even this, this verse I write
Is merely killing time
Guess I'm not even now
This man called three in rhyme