Para mi

Sometimes
I write a line
For him or her or you
Then other times
I scribe my rhymes
Because I'm feeling blue

Or strange, or tired
A little wired
Hung out on a ledge
A bit in doubt
With no way out
Save for jumping off the edge

If a verse
Seems a tad terse
Doesn't mean it's about you
If full of love
From on high above
It's not for you-know-who

I like to say
What makes the day
Or catches my mind's eye
What stirs the soul
Or makes me whole
Don't know the reason why

But I understand
It won't read as planned
In a different light
I mean no harm
Can we be calm
Please, let's not fight

For every word
That's read or heard
Is selfish, can't you see
For every dotted i
I can't deny
Is mostly para mi

Call

In the depths of winter

When the snow doth fall

The sun seems lost

And ever so small

One thing alone

Can bring me round

Lift my spirits 

Up off of the ground

When the blossom blooms

And the flowers grow

When Spring brings life

To all we know

One thing keeps me rooted
In the right place
In the madness around me
It's my breathing space

It's the voices of
The ones I trust
Those that are closest
The ones that are just
Always there for me
And I'm in return
Theirs, ready and willing
Waiting at every turn
It's the voices of
That ones that I call
When things aren't quite right
And I've hit the wall
And they're always there for me
So why do I find
Making that first move
Such an uncomfortable bind

When the leaves start to turn
From green to dark brown
And all of nature
Begins to slow down
One thing I find missing
That I need now it's fall
Is a friendly sound
On the end of a call

The voices of
The ones I trust
Those that were closest
But have turned to rust
They were always there for me
As was I in return
Theirs, ready and willing
Waiting at every turn
The voices of
That ones I don't call
Because things aren't quite right
So I just stare at the wall
They were always there for me
So why did I find
Keeping that friendship
Such an uncomfortable bind

Though the phone doesn't ring
And the texts no longer chime
Doesn't mean I don't think of you
All of the time

Waiting

Seconds feel like minutes

Hours seem like days

Time twists the knife blade sharp

In so many ways

Caught in a perpetual loop

Round and round we go

Can't find the switch to jump the rails

Break the current's flow

Sweeping into day from night

From the roundabout there's no respite

Frozen hard, can't defrost

Paying the price

At such a cost

Running on the hamster's wheel

My sentence is

Without appeal

Long and lonely view ahead

Fills my mind

And heart with dread

My cries are soundless, totally mute

And there's just

No escape route

Autumn becomes winter

In a gradual change

But the season's gentle switch

Brings feelings no less strange

The skies may be blue clear 

And the frost may bite

I only see darkness ahead

Though the view is white

Sweeping into day from night

From the merry-go-round there's no respite

Frozen hard, can't defrost

Paying the price

At such a cost

Running on the hamster's wheel

My sentence is

Without appeal

Long and lonely view ahead

Fills my mind

And heart with dread

My cries are soundless, totally mute

And there's just

No escape route

Perchance......

Myriad of moments
Sleep-deprived
Things seem backwards
Dreams can't be revived

Endless situations
Turned on their head
Was it something
That I did or I said

Lost mid-sentence
My train of thought
Precious moments
Can't be begged or bought

Frontal lobe cries out in pain
Another sleepless night again
Take me from this wretched place
Smooth the lines etched on my face
Hold me, calm me, soothe me so
You know the place I need to go
The land of giant slumbering snores
Give my whole self time to pause

Two twenty eight
The clock ticks on
In some strange blur
An hour has gone

Pushing closer
To the dawn
To be filled with coffee
And stifled yawn

The day, the night
No line between
Where sleep and wakefulness
Should have been

Frontal lobe cries out in pain
A sleepless night yet again
Drag me from this wretched place
I surrender whole, there's no disgrace
In wanting the night to be just so
Where silence reigns and words don't flow
Let me have my giant slumbering snores
Give my whole self time to pause

Blanket

Sparkles shimmer everywhere

Covering the ground

Silence rings out loudly

There's barely a single sound

The day seems very slow to start

The coldness grips so tight

The sun climbs weakly in the sky

Finally ending the night

Frost covers all

From plants so low

To trees so tall

Water frozen in many ways

Reflects all

The sun's cool rays

Footfalls noisy as they go

The sounds, the sights

A spectacular show

The splendour of winter's here

Enjoy it

It will soon disappear

Grass and mud turns solid

No matches will be played

While the air remains so cold

Team mates are dismayed

But the views are beautiful

Crisp and clear and blue

There's something special about winter

Gets me through and through

Frost covers all

More beautiful

Than the colours of the fall

Water frozen in many ways

Dazzles all

In a shiny haze

Footfalls noisy as they go

To make this perfect

We just need snow

The splendour of winter's blanket's here

Enjoy it

It will soon disappear