I'm title-less for a change
Makes for a different way
Not quite sure what will come out
As my fingers start to play

Leave the mind in neutral
Slip the heart out of gear
Let the phrases tumble out
Be it a big smile or a tear

Strange having no focus
The slate before me's blank
Dropping in to the unknown
Like I'm walking the pirate's plank

It's these times that I struggle
To communicate at all
Nothing wells up deep within
No reserves on which to call

Any my silence is confusing
For those around, I know
They feel left out and unwanted
But it really isn't so

It's me that I'm not talking to
Don't want to be round myself
Can't buy my friendship, not at all
I don't have that kind of wealth

It's me I wish to silence
Shut up all the doors
Lock each and every window
Without a second's pause

And please, please, please don't think
For one second it is you
This wholly is within me
You know my words are true

So lift that pretty head of yours
And fire me off a smile
I'll be back to full-on form
In just a little while

Force

The most thunderous gale
Cyclone or storm
A devastating weather front
That may form

A bolt of lightning
That rips through the sky
Makes even the bravest
Scared to fly

But nature's no match
For the most powerful force
Found deep in the wells
Of an unlikely source

Brooding and stirring
For eternity
Just open your heart
And one day you might see

The force of love
Making you fly
Higher and higher
Till the clouds pass on by
Feel it throw you down
Slammed hard on the ground
Rendering you speechless
Can't make any sound
Knocking the wind
Right out of your sails
Though outside it's blowing
The hardest of gales
The force of love
Is all I can think of

What makes people do things
That would never arise
Save for they've opened their hearts
And closed tight their eyes

Many splendid gestures
Of romance and dare
For their own personal safety
They gave not one care

When three little words
Can make your tummy flip
As if you've fallen off
The edge of a cliff

The force of love
Making you fly
Or sobbing until
There's no tears left to cry
Feel it lift you up
Miles above the ground
Or leaving you in isolation
Feeling there's no one around
Knocking the wind
And life out of you
Or making you burst
As if your dreams all came true

It will conquer all
The force of love
And it's the only thing
That I can think of

What can i say
After a troublesome day?
Can I look to words
And hope I feel ok?

Can I search for you
As I so often do
Help me turn the tides
Stop me feeling blue

Not sure if it's in me now
Lost, out of my depth somehow

For when the talking stops
I know I'll come apart
Won't be fit to summon up
The energy to start
And drag myself back around
Till in the mirror I see me
Won't recognise myself, my face
Or who I want to be

I'll cry out, save me from this fall
But you won't hear my voice at all

Can I be sincere
I need you near
When I'm gripped by
A strange and lonely fear

Unsure of my role
In keeping me whole
Don't want the scars
To maim my soul

Not sure I want to be somehow
Lost, don't understand me now

For when the talking stops
I'll come apart
Won't be fit to summon up
Anything to start
The chore to drag myself around
Till in the mirror I see me
Won't recognise myself, my face
Or who I want to be

I'll cry out, save me from this fall
But you won't hear my voice at all

Remember

Nothing lasts forever
As they always say
What once burned so bright
Will fizzle out one day
The brightest flame
Turns to dying ember
I will remember

The best of times
Will soon disappear
I'll turn and find
You're no longer near
But the magic of our
Romantic splendour
I will remember

Seconds in time
Often held in rhyme
Though we stole so many
There was no crime
All those moments shared
Feelings aired
Proving beyond doubt
The depth that we cared

For each other
Never more so than now
But I know it will all
Fade away somehow
But come June, July
August or September
I will remember

When I know you're gone
And our journey's at an end
I will always be thankful
That you were my friend
And a promise I'll make you
I won't fall apart
I'll keep some of your magic
Locked deep in my heart
And so every year
From January to December
I will remember
I will remember

Advance

Cast you
An admiring glance
Wonder if
I should advance
Make a move
Towards your heart
Would I know
Where to start?

Look deep
In to your eyes
For within
Lies the prize
All your
Thoughts and dreams
Written out
In many reams

I just need
To crack the code
Switch in to
Detective mode
Find the keys
That open your door
So I can cross
The threshold and more

Learn the very
Art of you
What makes you smile
What makes you blue
Drink the magic
In your air
Understand each
And every stare

That flummox me
I have to say
Knock me senseless
In every way
Dishevelled
I stand here now
But I swear
I'll take a vow

To understand
You to the core
Every inflection
Smile, or roar
And in doing so
Pray you learn me too
Has happened with
So very few

So I'll keep trying
To advance
And not relent
Or rest my stance
Just so happy
To have this chance
For you make my heart
Sing and dance

Mall people

Come from near and come from far
On bus, by car, or train
They gather at this place
Their purpose here is plain

But what about me, my plan?
I'm here to kill some time
Take in my favourite hobby
People watching, it's no crime

I love the things they all bring
To the party that is here
Laughs and smiles, dreary eyes
And men with their shopping fear

Girl with the shortest of shorts
And perky bum, it has to be said
Guy with the strangest hat
Placed strategically on his head

Pretty girl with bf by her side
Walking slowly hand in hand
But his eyes only scan the place
His jealousy is hard to understand

Ladies chatting non-stop over drinks
Waitress' legs shuffle along
I listen absent-mindedly
To a rather boring song

For me, it's the people that I meet
Talk to, interact with, greet
The characters and their ways
Make mall trips such special days

For me, people are what matter most
I'll raise a glass to you, a toast
Thanks, mall people, you made my day
Hope I can bring a smile your way

Below

All is calm
Steady and serene
The winds blow softly
Or so it seems

Nothing is ruffled
Or out of place
All is perfection
Style and grace

But you're like a swan
You know that I know
On the surface idyllic
But manic below

And no reassurance
Will turn my thought
Cause through your eyes
I know that you're fraught

And right now I can see
The waters are churning
Thrashing and splashing
For peace you are yearning
And right now I can see
You're trying to fight
Thrashing and splashing
With all of your might

But peace won't be yours
Till you stop still
Here, take my hand
Drink in your fill

Of my words, of my voice
The things that I say
Let my arms wrap you tight
Come what may

And now I can see
You're regaining your air
Of utmost composure
Graceful debonair
And now I can see
The stillness inside
Of utmost composure
And a smile so wide

And you're still my swan
You know that I know
Your beauty and passion
Will forever on me grow

Unsure

Bravado abounds aplenty
Words they come and go
The banter and the gentle smiles
Pass you as they flow

Seemingly so certain
Of everything he is
Confidence just everywhere
No fuss, no mess, no tizz

Relaxed in every situation
You're assured of his attention
Time to spare, no trepidation
Glinting eyes of admiration

Outwardly there is no sign
Of any struggle or fight within
So you take him at face value
The mask will never once wear thin

Any fraught times or tales
Are met with easy calms
Knowing all you need to do
Is fall straight in to his arms

Relaxed in every situation
You're assured of his attention
Time to spare, no trepidation
Glinting eyes of admiration

Yet when I'm close to you
I come undone
I'm Icarus
And you're my sun
My wings that saw me
Fly so high
Melt in the gaze
Of your eye
Can't take the heat
The shine, the glare
Of your looks
And intense stare
You delve in to
The heart of me
My legs they
Turn to jelly
I have no answer
No quick retort
In your net
I'm truly caught
Fish out of water
Gasping for air
Trapped by your
Smile, your face, your hair
But there's no
Escape for me
Why, you ask?
I'm Icarus, see
Flown too close
To the one
My Neo
And Trinity won't come
To save the day
Before I'm done
Got to close to the sun

And this wasn't the idea
Of this post
Started no differently
To most
That you read here
Every day
When I've escaped work
And on my way
Guess I lost something
As we went
Or found some words
I'd left unspent

Sorry for the words you had to endure
Not sure what I wrote them for
But I'll leave them here for evermore
Not like me to be so unsure

Flexibility

I get these words, they just appear
The magic of thought, from far or near
That call to me to write in rhyme
And post in multiples, three through to nine

And normally, I can simply scribe all day
Blather on, as the train races away
Never lost for an angle, line or verse
And always in calmness, never fraught or terse

Sometimes feels like it's one, two, three
Painting by numbers, simple and easy
The words just roll right out of me
No pressure, happens effortlessly

But then there's words that bring me to a stop
Catch me clean off guard, on the hop
Am intrigued by what they uncover in me
A lack of depth? No flexibility?

Wonder if it will help me understand the man
If I change tack, adopt a different plan
Fathom out this depth in tranquility
Not in battle or adversity

Sometimes feels like it's one, two, three
Performed by rote, no flexibility
The words just roll right out of me
No pressure, effortlessly

But in a strange twist of fortune or fate
Flexibility has been my hardest 'date'
The words really made me wait
'Till they were complete, hope you appreciate

Silent Sunday - Herbs and hearts

Mild-mannered

Journey's nearly over
Haven't got long to wait
Till The train pulls in and stops
At platform number eight

I'm tardy though, for a change
As Blogger's been in strife
Only just got access back
To my 'other' wife

But I'll not shout or complain
It is free after all
A service where I post my thoughts
And where I hope you'll come to call

Read about me, in black and white
All the wrongs I'd like to put right
Things that keep me awake at night
And random stuff I like to write

Topics that sometimes get me riled
Thoughts and words that should be filed
So I don't often go too wild
Cause I like to keep my manners mild

Train's pulling in
Journeys at an end
And still I've not pushed
That button called 'send'

Want to share a few more
Of my thoughts with you
Cause I'm just like that
Is what I like to do

Cause talking always helps
Keep me in line
This is where I vent
In lots of words that rhyme

Read about me, in black and white
I get things wrong, I'm not always right
And that keeps me awake at night
And here's random stuff I like to write

Topics that sometimes get me riled
Thoughts and words that should be filed
So I don't often go too wild
Cause I like to keep my manners mild

Detached

Wonder what is seen

By people when they view me

Would love to know sometimes

Am intrigued, see

What is it that draws them in

Or pushes them away

Is it simply all the things 

I do and words I say?

Or am I missing a big slice

Of the cake that's three?

Do I have an air or tone

On which they can't agree?

Wish I could detach

Take a break from myself

Dust me off, lift me clear 

From my internal shelf

Float up, up and away

And spin myself around

Stop and turn and take a look

Find my common ground

Understand where I come from

Why some are so attached

And others, seemingly

Are always so detached

May be it's a good thing

That I know there is no chance

I cannot depart myself

Deliver a long hard glance

May be I'd not like

The person looking back

Be sad, or disappointed

I'll not cut myself some slack

Realised that I've not become

All I wanted to be

And will never ever know

Whether it's good to be ordinary

Glad I didn't detach

Take a break from myself

I like gathered dust

On my internal shelf

Could have floated up and away

And never come back down

Left all those I love behind

Stranded on the ground

Don't understand where I come from

But I like being attached

And from those I love and care for

Never want to feel detached

Solution

I can be what you need
Everything you desire
I'll be your comfort
Your warm cosy fire
I can be all and more
Just give me some time
To bring it straight to you
In words spoke in rhyme
I am what your think of
Every night and day
I know that you're just
Too embarrassed to say
You don't need to be worried
Or even too proud
I'm a simple man, lady
Just say it out loud
You want it, you need it
Everything that is me
Just say the few words
It could be so easy
I'll not wait here forever
Ain't got time to kill
So get here now, lady
And i'll show you a thrill
Show you what it means
To be loved to the bones
I'll get you stirred up
Can't wait to hear all your moans
I'm the one that can do it
Bring it all to you
So you'll know what it's like
To be loved through and through...
.............

But when I look in the mirror
It's so plain to see
That I'm nothing special
I'm kidding no one but me

You're out of my league, girl
A class up above
Couldn't imagine at all
Why you'd want my love

Know I'm good with the verbals
I talk a good game
But I'd never match it in real life
I'd never be the same

I'm soft, and I'm gentle
And also quite shy
All this talk, this bravado
*shrugs* just don't know why

Guess I thought you'd never
Want the real me
Had to put on this act
All tough and manly

When all I want is just to
Hold you so tight
Tend to your needs
Every day and all night

But I can't think of a solution
Nothing that I can find
Guess I'm stuck here always
Going out of my mind

Cause all I want's a solution
That brings me to your heart
Locked deep down within you
So we'll never be apart

Listen

A thousand words
Would never be enough
A million dreams
Could never call the bluff
All the time in the world
Wouldn't be that long
For it always seems right
And never feels wrong

It's a concept
That feels very strange
Like it's a big plan
Someone wanted to arrange
To lay it all out
Just for you and me
That everyone could read
But no one would see

For you never need to listen
But you hear everything
Every dot, every cross
Each recoil, every spring
And you never need to listen
You just know all of me
Each drop, every morsel
Of the one that is B

So I'll take up that big plan
And move it on a pace
Talk with my words
My eyes and my face
And let you read it all
Drink it all in
So you see every thought
And feeling within

For you never need to listen
But you hear everything
The tears that sometimes fall
And how my heart sings
And you never need to listen
To the one that is B
And knowing you'll hear
Means I'll never be lonely

Banbury Babe

I have only seen you twice
Or may be it is thrice
But there' a specialness about you
Think you're rather nice

First time that I saw you
Was on platform number 2
Boarding the train to take us home
To do whatever it is we do

Spied you at least once more
Catching the train at 5:44
Almost had the guts to sit by your side
It would not have been a chore

Wondered what I would have said
What strange things popped in my head
To break the ice, and get a word with you
Hoped every word you wouldn't dread

My aim? I don't know at all
If I'd be heading for a fall
But just some words in your company
Would make me stand up tall

But you leave the train round the curve
And off you go with your sexy swerve
I wonder if, Banbury Babe
To talk to you I'll ever have the nerve

Action

What ever the outcome
What ever the cause
There's a word I should
Really remember: pause

Fools rush in
Or so they say
Actions speak louder
in every single way

And that is what should always
Be called to mind
When a certain thought
Or feeling I can't find

And taking this action
No matter what I feel
Will always return me
To an even keel

Not all bottled up
And ready to pop
But calm and collected
The turmoil will stop

And what is this action?
This splendid do?
To stop. To listen
And mostly talk to you

Silent Sunday - College Blues

Bonus

Company performance on the up
My whole team's doing good
Got myself a bonus
Cause my contract says I should

Wonder what to blow it on
Shoes, or clothes or bling?
Something to make me feel special
I guess that's the thing

Want to remember what I buy
Treasure it always
As the pay off for the times of stress
And all those busy days

Would be easy to just blow it
Not give a second thought
To the arguments, the battles
Of a merger that was fraught

What did I buy last the time
A bonus came my way
I wrack my brains, my memory
Can't recall, I'm sad to say

This time I'll do better
Will be a gift of quality
Something tangible, in my hand
That's my solemn promise to me

Makes me think of all the things
I've squandered through the years
My drawers are full up to the brim
It makes me well up full of tears

And what of things that aren't mine
I don't know what I did to earn
But they're lavished on me now
I hope one day that I'll learn

What I did to earn the bonus
Of your friendship and your love
Why it feels like this is heaven
Sent from high above

Trust one day you will explain
Why you landed at my door
With words that melted me
And oh so so much more

Hope I never squander
The special things you give to me
Hope I treasure them always
And in turn make you happy

Intent

However genuinely
Something is meant
It's easy for love's
Currency to be spent

Frittered away
Without thought or care
Left unattended
A cupboard that's bare

And those that are wanting
Would give everything
To bask in the feeling
That true love can bring

But how often it's cast
Away or aside
The lonely soulmate
Now devoid of pride

So what does it take
For the fires to burn bright
From the start of each morning
To the dark of the night?

A commitment? A promise?
A vow that you say?
That you'll never be parted
Come. What. May.

But I think it takes more
Than words easily said
It's a feeling that runs through
Your soul, heart and head

A want, a desire
That swells up inside
That says more than 'I do'
To your groom or your bride

A passion, a strength
That lasts hour after hour
But that's also so pretty
Like the most beautiful flower

Not a commodity
To be traded or sold
But to be grasped forever
Much more precious than gold

And the word that keeps sticking
In my mind as I write
Is intent, I tell you
I promise you I'm right

Intent's all that matters
What is deep in your heart
That you'll love them forever
And never to part

Intent's in all meanings
In every deed, word and thought
Something that's within you
Not a quality that's bought

And I mentioned a currency
Something never to be spent
For my love will forever
Be swelled by intent

Value

I value
The time we share
How you care
They way you stare

I treasure
A word from you
The things you do
When I'm feeling blue

I worship
The ground you tread
Things left unsaid
There's nothing I dread

When you're here with me
It's simple, you see
Our honesty
Makes me feel free
No jealousy
Or a need to be

I'm captured
Feel like I belong
You're the words to my song
This feeling's so strong

I imagine
I could reach to the sky
You carry me that high
No word of a lie

And finally
In each single thing
Yes, in everything
You make my heart sing

In all that you do
Each word here is true
Through and totally through
Not a thing I'd undo
Incomparable you
So beyond value

Time

Ever had that feeling
That it won't pass you by
The hands move round so slowly
You almost want to cry

Stuck in a rut, or spiral
That just grinds you down
And nothing makes it move faster
Not a scream, or tear, or frown

The worst morning at work
The day you best friend dies
Brings pain to your heart
And your soul cries
It's like you are in mourning
Everything seems on hold
Can't move yourself forward
Your life seems on hold

Time.

Ever had that feeling
That it's just gonna race by
It will be over before you know it
Or have even blinked an eye

Flying like a kite
So free and unbound
The world is your oyster
Your feet don't touch the ground

The best day ever
When you hold her in your arms
In raptures, totally captivated
By her warmth and charms
And everything seems a blur
No matter what you do
When she looks straight in your eyes
And whispers "I love you"

Time

Silent Sunday - Saturday at Merecroft